Saturday, April 20, 2024

my next Anita Brookner novel for may 2024

I've decided to read Anita Brooker's novels in chronological order. 

She demands a lot of me as a reader, but she pays in kind with deeply moving character portrayals, and I am dedicated to reading all of her novels by no later than the middle of next year.

Up next I will be reading Look At Me



Book Summary: A lonely art historian absorbed in her research seizes the opportunity to share in the joys and pleasures of the lives of a glittering couple, only to find her hopes of companionship and happiness shattered.


Sometimes I just start one of her novels by reading one paragraph just so that I can "always be reading Brookner". It's how I approach Proust as well. 

Opening line:

Once a thing is know it can never be unknown. It can only be forgotten. And, in a way that bends time, so long as it is remembered, it will indicate the future.

 

Friday, April 19, 2024

Incidents in the Rue Laugier by Anita Brookner: A Book Review

 



What can I say? No one writes into the marrow of relationships (familial and partnerships) in under 250 pages quite like Anita Brookner. She is so masterful at drilling into the experience of her characters, that she demands to be read slowly.


source: BBC


In Incidents in the Rue Laugier, Brookner describes so vividly and emotionally the story of what happens when a young, inexperienced woman goes into the world. Maud seeks independence from her stifling mother, while actually having no one to turn to for any guidance. This spells disaster as Tyler can sense her naiveté. As a man who preys on young women's inexperience, he says and does all the right things for Maud to become ensnared with him.

You can guess what all happens next. Interestingly, THIS isn't the part of the story that sent me reeling. It's Tyler's frenemy- Edward whose character depiction strikes me the most.

Edward is outwardly reliable, definitely not a rake, and seemingly compassionate. What Edward tasks himself with later is seen as less chivalrous, and more self-serving. His insistence on propriety at the expense of his own happiness becomes a weighted blanket in his relationship.

We then see an extreme role reversal. He begins to feel trapped. Maud begins to appreciate that continuity that a husband and her own life can bring- especially when juxtaposed with her life back home with her mother. 

This novel explores family, responsibility, connection, honesty, women's dependence, self-esteem, duty, grief, love, and acceptance in a way that only Anita Brookner can do. 

Brookner condenses stories down to their most important factors and allows the reader to enter safely into the deepest recesses of the hearts and minds of her characters. You can't help but see yourself in most of them, and walk about pondering how/what you would do in the situations she presents on the page.

I will continue to read all of her works. Now I will approach them in chronological order so that no stone remains unturned. 

Quotes from the novel:

But recently I have found myself repeating some of my mother's attitudes- reading, sighing, going to bed early- and I began to wish for clarification.

Like my father I found her apparent serenity irritating, yet I have reached the age when a woman begins to perceive that she is growing into the person whom she least plans to resemble: her mother.

Maud simply wanted to live in Paris, with or without a husband, preferably without. While careful not to let her thoughts show on her severe and slightly disdainful golden face, Maud had a secret desire to escape all forms of control. That was her abiding wish.

Loneliness, he felt, was sometimes the price one paid for integrity. 

Tyler had saddled himself with this girl, Maud, for no other reason that that he was used to being accompanied by a submissive female presence.

Please do yourself a favor if you haven't already and read Incidents in the Rue Laugier. 

Thursday, April 18, 2024

getting the proustian itch again- reading the best of literature

Busy days mean I am only reading the best of what literature has to offer. I don't have a lot of time to "test out" new narratives and decide if it works for me. That's why watching bookish content online is so fun- THEY can read it for me, and I can experience the novel that way.

For me, it's been a slow reread of Emma, a deep journey through Romantic Outlaws, several nonfiction books, Nabakov's letters to his wife, Game of Thrones (first time), and a myriad of other things.


coffee + cake= love


Long gone are the days of seeing how many novels I can finish (residue from my time on BookTube), and I've said hello again to the deep, slow, immersive reading style that I've always loved.

Some judge me for always seeking out 5 star reads or 5 star experiences, but this is my reading life. And the key word is life. I don't get the breaths I take back, and I won't get the time I spend on books back either. 

There is nothing wrong with reading ANYthing that your heart desires, but for me I use literature to maintain my sanity through the tough times of my life, for transformation, and for a clue into the universal experiences of humankind. It's a tall order, but there are several novelists who absolutely hit the mark, so why not read and reread them???

My days are long, and my nights are sleepless. I've been getting the itch to begin all 7 volumes of In Search of Lost Time again. GASP. I read it in 2022. It could maybe do with some more air in between readings, but the heart wants what it wants!


always coffee


I'm thinking that if the itch doesn't go away I'll start Swann's Way and allow myself to read one volume every 6 months or so. This way it's a few years worth of reading projects, and I can slowly languish over his memories while creating my own. 


I love this edition. Gorgeous.


Either way, I'm grateful for the reprieve that literature offers me from how hard things can be sometimes. I am also grateful to read that these struggles of the human experience have been documented for hundreds of years. It's why I have always and will always love the novel form. 

Friday, March 22, 2024

struggling with contemporary novels

Perhaps it's the spring... that dawning of a new phase of life, or both, but I have been quitting on novels with reckless abandon lately.

While that feels freeing, it also feels like a great waste of time. 

I enjoy watching bookish content, and following book prizes (even if I don't read most of the long/short listed novels). I know that this consumption of others' opinions can make one grow more distant from their own internal taste.

always a good time for austen

I love deeply moving character narratives. I believe that it has been a long time since authors were collectively capable of writing deeply moving character portrayals AND exciting plots (see Thomas Hardy, James Baldwin, Zora Neale Hurston).

Now, it's either navel-gazey meanderings which give zero insight into the human experience, or they are formulaic wastes of time that leave me rolling my eyes, guessing every next plot point, and feeling manipulated by it all.

This not me saying one single bad thing about authors or those who love traditionally published genre fiction. I also find myself enjoying some of these novels, but not often enough. I believe the issue is that I keep watching people enjoy these books, and someone I think that if I keep trying them, I'll enjoy them. That hasn't been the case.

As I've gone back to school, I have had to make other trade offs when it comes to extraneous reading. This makes me interested ONLY in deeply moving 5 star reads. Even when I thought I would read a light romance novel, I dnfed it within 55 pages. 

It's okay... I'm organizing my "free" reads in the meantime to keep up with making time to read well. 

I am off to create my literary plate, and organize my kindle into collection so that when I am ready to read a few pages from each book, they can all be in the same place.

Great literature wins again.

Monday, March 11, 2024

snippets from letters to vera (mr. nabokov)

 Oh Mr. Nabokov.... 

Lolita was one of my favorite reads from 2023 and is on a permanent and constant re-read list for me. This is high high praise for any novel imho.

This collection of letters from Vladimir to his wife are beautiful, obsessive, inspirational and most importantly feel like praying into an intimate love. 

I'll be just typing out a few bits of letters. If you want exact locations, please feel free to look them up in the Modern Classics edition from Penguin.

modern classics cover


"I dreamt of you last night-as if I was playing the piano and you were turning the pages for me." VN to VéN, 12 January 1924

"How I wish you were saying, right now, with feeling: 'But you promised me!?...' I love you, my sun, my life, I love your eyes- closed- all the little tails of your thoughts, your stretchy vowels, your whole soul from head to heels."

"Do you know that you are my happiness? You are made entirely of tiny arrow-like movements- I love every one of them."

This will be a slow read for me. Taking my time. I will dip in and out of these letters as my mood moves me.

Happy epistolatory reading to you as well.


Sunday, March 10, 2024

re-reading the days away

Nothing can make me feel excited about "romance" or "gossipy" reads like Thomas Hardy. 

Every time I want a lighter or just dysfunctional read, I reach for Thomas Hardy. I've been rereading Far From the Madding Crowd for the countless time.

I found myself DNFing book after book, and whenever that is the case, I have to pay attention to exactly what I am picking up.

I've toyed with ideas of returning to BookTube with a standard channel, and have revisited the reasons I left. They all hold up as true. I have decided to return (more later), but in a MUCH different way. 

As spring break approaches, I have a plethora of books on my currently reading schedule and I don't care about dates finished/ page counts, or any other such thing. It's all about reading books that transform and change me. Books that can be companions with cups of coffee


one of my favorites of all time

I find that the more heavy-hitting, great literature I read, the harder it is to return to lighter, contemporary works. 

It's a cold + sunny Sunday, and I am off for a slow treadmill walk while reading and planning what books will accompany me along my relaxing week's journey.

Sunday, February 18, 2024

Wild Geese by Mary Oliver

This is by far my favorite poem by Mary Oliver, and perhaps my favorite poem. 

It's so deeply transformative, and it does what only poetry can do... it gives voice to that thing that deeply calls to us- the power of acceptance. Read it slowly and let it sink in.


Wild Geese by Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.

You do not have to walk on your knees

for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.

You only have to let the soft animal of your body

love what it loves.

Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.

Meanwhile the world goes on.

Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain

are moving across the landscapes,

over the prairies and the deep trees,

the mountains and the rivers.

Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,

are heading home again.

Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,

the world offers itself to your imagination,

calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting -

over and over announcing your place

in the family of things.

Saturday, February 17, 2024

Rest Well Jenny ♥️


 

Oh Jenny...

Your death is a stark reminder of how short this life is. What a kind, compassionate, engaging, intelligent woman you were. Your warmth and enthusiasm for classics and history will live in the hearts of so many of us. 

You are gone, but most definitely not forgotten my dear. 

Rest well Jenny. We will miss you. ♥️ 

Friday, February 16, 2024

Virginia Woolf Made Me Keep Kindle Unlimited

I am loving this so far

 

It's rare to be spoken to from the grave, but I could hear Virginia whispering, "Either buy my diary, or keep Kindle Unlimited to finish it."

Okay, that's a stretch, but it was a late night with a decaf coffee when I realized that I like having an array of books to scroll through when the mood hits. Sure I'd love to save the money and perhaps put it towards owning a book, but I don't collect books like many others do, so that isn't a huge incentive.

Every time I think of cancelling Kindle Unlimited, something like this comes across my recommendations, and I reconsider keeping it. 

My membership expires in less than 7 days, so I will just renew it. I think the price is egregious, but I have spent money on things that mean less.

People discuss the "lack of quality" of the books on KU, but in truth, there are gems on there. Lots of nonfiction (which I love), and most all of the classics.

Thanks Virginia, I think I'll keep it for now and see exactly what you were thinking and feeling up to your death. 

Tuesday, January 16, 2024

mary oliver: a thousand mornings: the gardener (poetry)

 


The Gardener

Have I lived enough?
Have I loved enough?
Have I considered Right Action enough, 
have I come to any conclusion?
Have I experienced happiness with sufficient gratitude?
Have I endured loneliness with grace?

I say this, or perhaps I'm just thinking it.
Actually, I probably think too much.

Then I step out into the garden,
where the gardener, who is said to be a simple man,
is tending his children, the roses.

poetry pause: monotony:: langston hughes

  stockphoto: coffee, books, pears on a plate Monotony Today like yesterday Tomorrow like today; The drip, drip, drip,   Of monotony Is wear...

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